I'm 38 weeks today is my last day in da office!

Yippies... I'm on my way to the long vacation.. To tell the truth, I am just being helpless since I stepped in the 3rd trimester of my pregnancy. So I decided to take early leave 11 days before my duedate.

In another case, I feel very tired lately.. Tired in my case is I cant even stand properly and I feel sleepy all the day..last few days I was an energetic supermom with pot-bellied. But today I am a helpless pregnant lady seeking for attention. I reluctantly go to office since today is my last day.. I need to be in the office as to clear e few task before i leave.

Till then.

Ok, let's start again..

Yeay.. It's been 1 1/2 year since I last updating this blog.. :))) Hehehe.. I just cant be a blogger/ author I guess.. Really I do have moods.. And this blogging thingy is really depending on my mojo.. And I have lost the mojo for blogging for almost 1 and 1/2 year.. (Clap, clap, clap). The reasons I created this blog are:

1) to actually updating about my two boys growth progress; and

2) because I just want to polish up my writing skill ( if only I have the skill :P )

Picca is courtesy by google

So with the coming Ramadhan of 1433H, I have determine myself to write as many I can.. so let's see if I can.. Hehe.. There're lots and lots of things to be written in, but as I said earlier I dont have the mojo.. and I hope this mojo I got today will last longer than before.. Ngeh ngeh.. till then.. Salam Ramadhan everyone..

Back To Normal

Am back to normal.. am deeply feel guilty to Mr. Waled.. I've asked for his apologise. Am forgiven :).. Thank God! Got nothing to write about, will write more after Amsyar's Bday Bash.. We'll see..

Mood Swing

Finally.. he's back after a week leaving behind the family. Look.. I'm here not to talk bad about my husband, but I just need to burst out what I feel right now. Maybe this feeling I'm facing through is because of the menses I have now.. Whatever.. Ok he left for Perlis on the 27th May, he's done with his job on the 29th... from 30th to 1st June he's leisuring with his friends in Wang Kelian.. Ok now.. If you were in my shoes, what will you feel/ think?? He's having fun out there while I'm here running everywhere to comfort his two sons.. Yes.. we do have a maid, but still I need him as Aqil doesn't really want  bibik to handle him. On the other hand, Amsyar is growing up despite breastfeeding he tends to be like his brother, he wants me instead of bibik to carry him.. Now that's not a big issue actually.. But for what he did, I am pissed off!

He bought me a handbag. Which I don't like (maybe because of the above circumstances). But I don't tell him. I appreciate for what he got me. Anyway..I have a few things to confront with him, but I just don't have the energy to because I know him very well.. He is such a defensive person. He won't admit, even obviously he throws the stone.. So is my over reaction to my husband is due to my cycle or I am just being selfish??

He'll be leaving me again..

Hmm.. my mood to anything is decreasing as Mr Waled is leaving us again for a Rally Championship in Chuping, Perlis. I heard that place is full with sugar cane plantations.. Mr.Waled is leaving tonight and he'll be back by 1st June.. As he isn't around for the weekend, I have plan a few missions for myself, babies and friends. Well it's time to catching up with my school friends and ex-collegue. It's the best time to meet them as Mr Waled not around. Well for the kids.. they'll tag along..




Aqil is going to ask "Where's Waled" in this few days.. and I'm ready for it.

 



Something I'm worry about..

Yes.. I feel like bursting in here.. I have so many things in my head.. and so many things to be done.. but I just don't know where to start and what to do first.. It's like everything on my shoulders.. well it's nothing to do with my carreer or what.. I'm talking about my life I'm living.. I'm worried of my two kids who stay at home with a 'stranger' and they are too small to protect themselves.. :( This makes me sometime feels like pulling myself out from my career and be a 24hours housewife. But that's other thing I have to consider about, if I quit, what happen to our family economy? I'm working because my husband's pay is just enough for the four of us.. and living in today.. money first others second.. So I have to work.. and when I have to work.. there's somebody we have to hire to take care of our kids.. because picking a nanny or any nursery is not an option.. so we hire a maid.


Aqil and Amsyar with Bibik Ana

Yes I do have a husband to help on, but being away is something he hardly assist me with our living.. and yes we do have a maid which I thank Allah for sending her to us. But still having an 'outsider' in your house taking care of your kids without any of your own family to monitor.. is something you have to tawakal on.. I'm gambling my kids to her.. I can only have my 'doa' for my kids.. I'm hoping that she is treating my kids the way she treats them in front of us.. Well who might know if she's pretending.. that's what i'm afraid of. I have faith in Allah, so I can only hope for His blessings in protecting my two kids.. Certainly this is what keep on disturbing my mind.. but I always take it in a positive way.. I might kind of 'lepas tangan' when we lived in with my mom.. because I know my mom is there to monitor my maid.. and now, living on our own.. I really rely on her.. So far in my eyes she's ok, not that she's not done any mistakes, she does.. but it's  forgiven.. and I'm the type who just don't know how to ticking-off one on the spot.. that's my weakness and that's my husband annoyance..

Well..well.. that's just a rambling.. and my prayers are only the best for my kids and our family.. May Allah Bless us always.. Amin..

Lost the mode

I'm still looking for it.. everywhere.. but it seems I've lost it.. but deep inside my heart, i'm hoping it will turn back and stay forever...

I Am So Not In The Mood

As the title.. I am loosing the enthusiasm of blogging.. I couldn't help it.. It's the first day of working.. and I'm having the blues.. might because of the cold I had.. or the dissatisfaction to somebody that I had trouble with.. It mixed all well.. that making my day is a HELL!!

I was on leave yesterday.. spent my day with cleaning my 'house to be'.. settled just not everything just because I don't know what to do what first.. There are just so many teeny-weeny thingy to be done.. and I am not the oriented-type of person which is my husband's nightmare.. LOL!

Last Saturday, I woke up as early as 5.30am for attending the so-called Diabetes Walk.. well it is my second attempt in this activity.. My first attempt was Walk For Hunger on 29 October 2010.. that's not so much thing to talk about the walk on Saturday.. I was enjoying the walk by busying chit-chatting with my lovely friends Eny, Didi and Shahnaz.. and other KKLW runners too..

 Part of us.. they are a few more KKLWians.

From Left: Shahnaz, Leen, Me and Eny

Pictures are courtesy from Aisyatul and Shahnaz :)

Perbezaan Orang Kaya dengan Orang Berlagak Kaya

I write based on my observations. So suka hati I nak tulis apa pun.. This writing takde kena mengena dengan yang hidup atau yang mati.. Sesiapa yang terasa with all my writings please just shut this page..

Orang Kaya
1. Ada rumah besar
2. Kereta besar.. (3-4 bijik).
3. Makan kat restoran mewah
4. Pakaian up-to-date (mengikut trend masa kini)
5. Jawatan besar/ established job/ company sendiri
6. Tak suka menunjuk-nunjuk kekayaan..
7. Suka dengar berita/ cerita kalau ada orang lain berjaya
8. Bercuti di luar negara/ kalau dalam negara pun akan stay hotel gempak2
9. Suka bersedekah
10. Lepak kat coffee bean/ starbucks dan seangkatannya

 This photo is courtesy from Google

Orang Berlagak Kaya
1. Ada rumah besar (tumpang rumah mak/atau sedara mara)- they boast about this
2. Ada kereta besar (tapi pakai nama org lain sbb tak layak nak beli)
3. Makan kat restoran mewah (pakai duit mak atau subsidi org lain)
4. Pakaian up-to-date ( walaupun tak kena dengan dia)
5. Jawatan tak besar tapi gaya mcm pegawai besar
6. Sangat SUKA menunjukkan kekayaan/ atau apa pun yang dia baru beli
7. TAK SUKA dengan kejayaan org lain/ tak boleh org lain lebih daripada dia
8. Heboh nak bercuti di luar negara tapi sudahnya cuti dalam negara duduk   bajet hotel jer..
9. Suka bersedekah tapi pakai duit orang lain
10. Lepak kat coffee bean/ Starbucks dan seangkatannya (tapi dlm masa lain   ada org lain yg makan hati sbb dia pinjam duit kawan tu.. ^__^)

So tu conclude, I wonder what type of person I'm in.. I'm not rich.. neither I pretend to be rich! I just touched with the people around me who like to showing off what they have and what they get.. Well.. mintak dijauhkanlah tergolong daripada org2 yang berlagak kaya. I mean just be yourself and live your life on what you can afford not what you want to afford but you can't be.. that's so pathetic..

Time is precious!

This morning, I got to attend a meeting  in RISDA KL. I'm not complaining here, but when the secretariat has set the departure will be at 7.30am I assume everyone who's taking the ministry's bus will be there at 7.30am. Being typical, the bus reached  at the check point (the auditorium)  at 7.35am. I'm not being harsh, but i was waiting at the auditorium with few other officers but none of them are the secretariats. Well I'm not an expert here, neither I seldom handled that so called 'important meeting'. But at least I do know the basic. The secretariat of this meeting should at least standby one of their 'many' officers  to guide the committee to the bus check point. Well yes it's the usual check point, but bare in mind there are new officers who are not familiar with the usual check point. That's one thing, another thing is the late comers! Well people people.. Please please do respect other's time. U simply walk and say u forgot the meeting is held somewhere else.. Oh my.. I do put my high respect to this particular officer before, but with the stupid reason she just gave it ruins all my respect to her. But still, people make mistakes.. So i forgive her for her lateness though i know i should have stick to my principle.

Time is gold.

On the other affair, Amsyar Rakin is 5 months today.. He weights 8.6kg. A hike of 600gm from previous month. :) He can now rolling.. 1 second you put him here another seconds you'll find him there.. he moves very fast that I have to held him everywhere without leaving him alone especially in the bed.. Amsyar got his japs yesterday (i don't remember what the japs are for). Fortunately he doesn't have the fever.. Phew.. to me .. Amsyar is a tough baby.. He seldom falls sick.. Alhamdulillah and I hope it remains.. Insyallah.. :) Till then..

I'm good in..

Good morning, good morning to you and to you and you.. Hahahaha.. I was awaken with a few knocks on my bedroom door.. Knock! Knock! Knock!.."Anis.. tolong alih kereta.." Argh... opss.. it's 7am and I'm still in bed? Huaaarrhghh.. Luckily my sister in-law woke me up and believe me or not, I only took 12 minutes to dress up to office.. hahahahaha..

What happened to me? I did woke up earlier around 4.30am to feed my baby son. After feeding, he went asleep again.  I was planning taking a nap for 1/2 an hour before I wake my hubby up for his  sahur at 5am. What a good wife I am, I laid down sleeping until I heard that door  knocking. Huhu. But with my efficiency in getting dress so fast I managed to punch in at 7.26am without cursing and being rude on the road..In conclusion I would like to tell that I am really efficient when I'm in hectic situation.. hehehe.. (not in all situation though).

p/s: I am still working on in uploading a few pictures and writing posts.. Coming Soon!!

Starting A Blog

Starting a blog.. huargh.. it's like.. boleh ker? Larat ke nak update post hari2..  I just started to create one, simply because I want a place where I can burst out of something I like/dislike..So here comes this blog where I wanted my close friends to know what I'm doing, say if I'm not  around to see you all..