I lost The Significant Gem..

Yeah.. I lost it and i dunno where the hell it has gone.. and I am totally deject of it.. How can it just dissapear away from me.. does it meant to be something? I started to think silly things.. Typical me.. I'll relate every unhappy incidents that occured to something taht I have commited to any sins that Allah is reminding me.. And losing the diamond of your wedding ring is not something you can be proud of can you?

I Knocked A CaR!!

I don't know what happen to me today. I went out to office earlier than usual. It's 7.40am as normally I'll only be out of the house by 8.00am. Not even 100m away from my house, I've knocked someone's car! My bad.. My mistakes.. I put the blame on me 100% As I've mentioned earlier.. I don't know what happen to me today. I was daydreaming while driving and not even realising that a car coming after me and I couldn't bother to think of anything that I have just knocked his new brand car. Waaaaa.. I was blank.. I couldn't think of anything at that moment.  I was like a moron who helpless. Luckily the man driver was so gentleman as his car has just a bit scratch at the right back side. But a new brand car.. sapa tak marah kalau tak tentu pasal kena knocked, kat depan rumah plak tu.

the injuries of my car..

Errgh.. I guess.. today is just not my day.. It's my bad luck day.. It just seems to happen. And I take it in positive way.. Allah is testing me, reminding me, and  maybe it's the way to vanish my sins.. If it is meant that way, I woul just  redha. Though my mind is still refreshing back the incident of my stupidity.. I have to face it.. And I am thankful to Allah for bestowing me a very understanding husband. Thanks Love for keeping me calm.

Something I'm worry about..

Yes.. I feel like bursting in here.. I have so many things in my head.. and so many things to be done.. but I just don't know where to start and what to do first.. It's like everything on my shoulders.. well it's nothing to do with my carreer or what.. I'm talking about my life I'm living.. I'm worried of my two kids who stay at home with a 'stranger' and they are too small to protect themselves.. :( This makes me sometime feels like pulling myself out from my career and be a 24hours housewife. But that's other thing I have to consider about, if I quit, what happen to our family economy? I'm working because my husband's pay is just enough for the four of us.. and living in today.. money first others second.. So I have to work.. and when I have to work.. there's somebody we have to hire to take care of our kids.. because picking a nanny or any nursery is not an option.. so we hire a maid.


Aqil and Amsyar with Bibik Ana

Yes I do have a husband to help on, but being away is something he hardly assist me with our living.. and yes we do have a maid which I thank Allah for sending her to us. But still having an 'outsider' in your house taking care of your kids without any of your own family to monitor.. is something you have to tawakal on.. I'm gambling my kids to her.. I can only have my 'doa' for my kids.. I'm hoping that she is treating my kids the way she treats them in front of us.. Well who might know if she's pretending.. that's what i'm afraid of. I have faith in Allah, so I can only hope for His blessings in protecting my two kids.. Certainly this is what keep on disturbing my mind.. but I always take it in a positive way.. I might kind of 'lepas tangan' when we lived in with my mom.. because I know my mom is there to monitor my maid.. and now, living on our own.. I really rely on her.. So far in my eyes she's ok, not that she's not done any mistakes, she does.. but it's  forgiven.. and I'm the type who just don't know how to ticking-off one on the spot.. that's my weakness and that's my husband annoyance..

Well..well.. that's just a rambling.. and my prayers are only the best for my kids and our family.. May Allah Bless us always.. Amin..

Happy New Year Everyone

It's the 2nd day of 2011.. Well life goes on.. and I just want make a review on what have changed my life throughout 2010.. Let's see..

1. An established financial..( better than 2009.. :p)

2. I've raised a bigger family with the delivery of Amsyar Rakin on 10.06.10

  

3. I've moved-in to a quarters on 26.11.10 (my 5th anniversay)

  
4. My dear youngest sister Azahanim got married on 01.05.10

5. Aza got pregnant and will be delivering her baby sometime in April

So.. I think that's all I can remember.. I'll add up time to time once I remember and think it should be post in the blog.. tehehe..

Happy 5th Anniversary

Alhamdulillah.. It has been 5 years.. me and loving husband got married.. It was a memorable 5 years for both of us.. In 5 years times.. we have 2 children and just started to live on our own.. Yeah.. say whatever you would say.. but the opportunity to live separately from our parent just came after 5 years we live together.. we are both considered lucky to have two very understanding mamas (both our mother are single parent) whom we can live in together..

I can't say much of what's the bash.. yelah.. 5 years of married life.. I am hoping something spectacular happen on our day.. but hubby is a very busy man through out the end of the year.. so I couldn't expect that much.. some more with a growing kid and a baby.. we couldn't plan something and we can't afford to leave our adorable kids..

So I am just praying hard to ALLAH S.W.T for his mercy to bless our marriage life as happy and harmony as before and grant us with heaven.. Amin..

 5 years ago...

after 5 years as husband and wife..



the yummylicious red velvet cuppies that I ordered from delicious-cuppies



To my dearest husband.. I am hoping for the best in our marriage.. May we still hold the faith and tolerance in our relationship.. I do love you for the rest of my life.. Insyallah..