Lately, Aqil Razin used to threw his tantrum just unexpectedly. He can just scream or cries or whimpers without me or others knowing what he actually wants.
Last night, I'm about to perform my Isya' prayers and spread the sejadah and Aqil Razin who was busy playing with his toys came after me and said he wants to solat with me.. So I asked him to stand beside me on the sejadah, but he requested his own sejadah. So I took another sejadah and spread it besides me, but this little boy whimpered saying that he wants his sejadah.. I was like.. what did he actually wants? I was thinking maybe the way I spread the I not to what his liking so I asked him to spread himself.. And he still whimpered saying "nanak..nanak.." so many times.. try this.. nanak.. try that nanak.. and so I couldn't control my temper any longer and I lost it by pinching his legs left and right, softly slap his two blooming cheeks left and right.. (say.. I'm a bad mother..) I was.. and I regretted every time I did that to him.. Forgive Umi, Aqil.. but sometimes it's just hard to understand you, son.. Umi is trying hard to fulfill your every needs and wants.. And may Allah guide me with that so I won't spoilt my babies.
My Innocent Aqil Razin
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